Sunday, January 2
listen.
do you hear someone screaming into the silence?
footsteps running heavily down the stairs.
i shrink back into my own shell.
there's a pounding on the floor below, a violent struggle.
i double over, gripping my head between my knees
but i can't drown the sounds out.
they go on echoing in my head,
long after everything has gone silent.
over and over again i see flashing before my eyes
a full-colour picture, with the afternoon's shadows hitting the ground.
i see her face as she drags herself over the banister shrieking an unearthly shriek, clawing at her neck, sobbing so hard the words are meaningless
i hear my scream of terror hanging in the air as helpless tears run down my cheeks in salty rivers and splash softly on the parquet landing.
i feel my sister's arms around me, holding me tight as i stand there unmoving... she buries her face in my shoulder but i have fallen silent.
i break away and run into my haven.
i want to leave this place.
but there's nowhere to go to.
silence finally falls.
i cannot stop shaking.
it must've been love.
5:32 pm
xoxo
